Ready Player 1

Thanks to both lifestyle changes and medication, I am able to start doing things again that I haven’t done in sometime. One of these things is gaming. And, since I’m currently not on speaking terms with the MAKO, it’s time to turn my attention to new and better things.

Despite some altercations (mainly sexist) at my local GameStop (that’s for another post, and believe me, there will be one), I managed to emerge rather triumphant on Sunday.

Most notably: A long-awaited *RED* 360 controller. And it’s not even shiny. And it has black accents. Can we say made for Mara? On the plus side, I believe that brings us up to four controllers now, so we can have a full game of Marvel Ultimate Alliance 2…

I also walked out with 3 games for the Xbox 360 and 1 game for the Wii. I’m a little hesitant about the Wii, as the only games I’ve played have been WiiFit and Mario party games. Oh, and bowling.

The Wii game is “The Lord of the Rings: Aragorn’s Quest.” It has received mixed reviews, but, sword-fighting, and 3rd person action as Aragorn? Plus, if the partner wishes to join me, he can drop in as Gandalf. We’ll see how this one turns out.

Next, the games for the 360:

-Watchmen The End is Nigh Parts 1 & 2: Another game with mixed reviews, but, the partner and I are still arguing over who will get to play Rorschach. I guess Nite Owl just isn’t quite as interesting. ;) This game is mostly for when we want to try something new together, and aren’t back to making progress on Lego games.

-Skyrim: Late to the party, but, fashionably so. I’ve clocked about 4.5-5 hours of gametime so far, and feel like I haven’t made much progress, other than lying to some poor girl about a letter and accidentally following the guy who thinks I should join the Imperials (they wanted to kill me without knowing who I was, I think NOT). Stay tuned for some Skyrim updates.


Bayonetta. A third person action game featuring a witch who relies on magic and firearms. Sounds like my type of game. This was suggested to me by the incredibly helpful employee-in-training at my local GameStop, and I’m looking forward to giving it a try.

Alas, the dulcet timbre of a midterm is calling my name, so, I will have to wait until later this afternoon to rev it up.

visi BI lity

Today is Bisexual Visibility Day.

Part of me wants to hide in a corner, because I feel about as bruised as the Bi Pride flag can look. Part of me wants to stand up straight, proud of myself and those like me.

It’s hard to hear that you don’t count, that you’re making it up, that you just want attention, that you’re just trying to be “special.” It’s hard when you get excited about where marriage equality is passing, and in response to you using the term “we,” you get snapped at by another person who identifies as LGBTQ, because you’re currently in a relationship with the opposite gender, and so are “basically straight.”

It was months ago when that happened, but, I still remember the sting as if it were yesterday. I came into work, very excited about the passage of marriage equality, and came up to my lesbian coworker. “Did you hear that we can legally marry in [state] now?” I wasn’t prepared for the vitriol of her reaction: “There is no we, it doesn’t apply to you. You’re dating a guy, you’re basically straight, so why should you care?”

No, I didn’t argue that day with her. It was something I’ve heard from family and friends and acquaintances before. I get tired of defending myself; it’s easier to nurse wounds on my own.

My sexual orientation has nothing to do with whether I am monogamous or polyamorous. My sexual orientation doesn’t change based on with whom I am in a relationship.

I am bisexual.

All that means is that I don’t care about your junk, I care about you. I like you, regardless of how you identify, and regardless of what “equipment” you do or don’t have.

I still remember when I first admitted to myself that I was bisexual. It made sense. It was like a weight had lifted off of me when I did so. It put into perspective how I just really REALLY admired these women, and clearly just wanted to be like them… or be in them.

Bisexuals have to contend with negativity both from heterosexuals and from other LGBTQs. We are not out there cashing in on straight privilege. We don’t become lesbian and gay when we are with the same gender. We don’t become straight when we’re with the opposite gender. It doesn’t make us “non-practicing.”

When you go out, don’t assume someone is either homosexual or heterosexual. Take the time to educate yourself about bisexuality, and the issues that bisexuals face. Be aware of how you interact and what you say. Be an ally not just to L, G, T, and Q, but to B as well.

It’s easy for everyone to pass us over. Don’t do that. Help us see that we are visible, too.

It’s the Little Things

It really is the little things that count.

Rolled myself out of bed and dragged myself to university this morning. There was quite a bit of back and forth between Financial Aid and the Business Office, and then between Campus Security, the Registrar, and IT. Apparently (for the latter) a name change is a bitch when there is more than one system involved. However, after much patience was expended (and no tears… I am grateful I took an anti-anxiety this morning), I emerged successfully checked in, my tuition paid for between scholarships, grants, and loans, a new parking decal, and a new student ID proudly showing my new name (I opted to NOT have a new picture… Campus Security was making me grouchy and I wanted out of there).

I came home and my partner had french toast waiting, and swiftly added some maple sausage to that. We snuggled, we watched Phantom Menace, the kitties snuggled, and the cable guy came to bring us a new cable box. Turns out if we want to watch Outlander, we have to watch on the HD channel — which we didn’t know we got. At least we’re set for next Saturday…

Progress was made in the house. Several loads of laundry and dishes have been done. The hallway and living room have been vacuumed. The table is now in the hallway, as opposed to the (C)raft room, awaiting a clearing of space in the basement. My desk is set up in the (C)raft room, and I am awaiting one school book. I can register for classes after 10:30am tomorrow… I’ll be at work, then, but, am hoping to do so from my phone. Crossing my fingers. ;)

My poor sunburnt legs are getting better… I wore jeans today and they’ve only bothered me a little. Taco-seasoned hamburger is on the stove and a bottle of mead is opened. Soon the sound of rolling dice will carry me away until it’s time to sleep.

And yesterday was good. Yesterday, we built character’s for the D&D session that J is running. I’m playing a High Elf Sorceress. Acolyte background. It’s gonna be fun… especially since I talk Orc to the half-Orc in the party. I speak Common, Elvish, Orc, Sylvan, and Goblin. Let’s hope that’s enough… at least I’m proficient in Perception, at any rate.

Is it time?

Lughnasadh has come and gone, and I’m ready for the season to start changing. I can practically taste the crisp cool air of autumn on my tongue, but, it’s only ever just out of grasp.

I have my first batch of soup made and in the freezer. As soon as I’m not broke (which should be any paycheck now, I hope!!!), I’ll be buying bulk cheese and mixing up a batch of cheesy corn chowder to freeze as well.

The plan for today was to make some bread and freeze it, but, the world is singing to me and I cannot deny it long enough for bread to rise. The only reason I am inside now is that I am waiting for my time limit on the permanent crown to expire so I can EAT. I will probably bake some cupcakes just because in the meantime.

Sunday was a turning point, and I feel as though my soul is singing, despite the path ahead. But, that’s how it is with Her.

I’m busy combing other recipes for ideas to make ahead and freeze. The driveway at my house is akin to the opening crescendo of a roller coaster — we have no uninvited guests. ;) Still, with the cold weather coming on, even the thought of a little ice makes me uninterested in traipsing (let alone driving) down the hill, and thus, my hearth witch comes out in force.

I suppose it’s a rise in my motherly and naturely instincts. Either way, I intend to not let them go to waste.

I have a new job (I am so glad I am no longer unemployed–I hate that feeling!), university begins Wednesday next, I have a house I am ever so slowly turning into a home, I have a kitchen I can work in, three darling cats, and a wonderful partner.

Time to whip up some ginger sesame chicken and rice.

Settling In

I received our new highball and double old-fashioned glasses this morning. Super excited about that… they look beautiful:


As far as fitness goes, I’ve made it to day 2/30 for my 5-Minute Plank challenge, and just started my 30 day walk to run challenge with a 15 minute walk/run combo this morning. It was quiet and beautiful and worshipful. I am trying to focus more on cardio and HIIT to drop the excess fat and burn calories, whilst doing some basic upper body strengthening exercises, since I really need that for both work and pole dance.

My pantry cupboard is reorganized and that alone makes me happy. I need to spend some time tonight and tomorrow morning/evening straightening up the upstairs, but, there’s really not much to do, now that we got the dishwasher working again. I need to make a trip to Home Depot, maybe Sunday, to get the right plug for my dryer (rather than using the old dryer that came with the house) and lightbulbs for outside the house. Still working on cataloging the books and unpacking the rest of the boxes in the basement. I need to build some shelves/cabinets… I’ll probably turn the dresser in my craft room into shelves instead of drawers, for easier storage of fabric.

Assuming the rest of my order from Williams-Sonoma gets here tomorrow (or Saturday), I can proceed to making bread on Sunday. Since we got the chest freezer, I have ROOM and can freeze things. This makes me practically giddy.

DH and I have been playing cribbage every night this week without fail. It’s an alternative to Sentinels (which is still played frequently… I just tried out Parse and she’s really interesting) and xbox. Since we finished play-through of Marvel Ultimate Alliance 2 whilst the stepson was here, I’m not really keen on playing through it again. Unfortunately Bioshock: Infinite is only 1-player (still not convinced that FPS are that great, but the story is both intriguing and triggering), and Mass Effect only becomes 2-player when I’m ready to Hulk-Smash my tv because I hate driving the MAKO.

P found me a washing machine drum, which we are going to turn into the base for my firepit. I just need to be able to afford the stones, and I will turn part of my backyard into a nice patio with a firepit. I’m really really excited about this. I’m also trying to see if I can build my own porch swing for less than it costs to buy one.

It gives me something to write to my sister about, who is, alas, still stuck in Army rehab. Right now, we’re each averaging about 2 letters a week to each other and it’s better than nothing. Least amount of contact we’ve had in over 10 years of knowing each other, eesh!

The spiritual side of things is on the up-and-up I think. I feel really good about stuff. There’s been a lot of hard work, and there is even more yet to come. I started ADF’s Dedicant Path, and am posting about that on a specific journal, just for it.

Now that I’ve waxed long about my life, in which you are entirely uninterested, I may or may not have something to report in a couple weeks on the job front. Positive thoughts and energy are requested… I need a consistent paycheck.

I’ll Be His Mrs… My Own Damn Person, thank you

I have made it through wedding planning, through the wedding and the various debacles presented therein, through the trials leading up to the honeymoon, and through the honeymoon. I have emerged fairly unscathed, considering all that was involved.


Since I have a month before school starts up again, I’m working on getting my house sussed. Unpacked, organized, decorated, etc. I have some artwork up on the walls and some family photos. I’m looking forward to getting some wedding photos up, as well.


I have a desk to set up in my room — my goal is to get that done this weekend. I’ll be moving my table down to the basement and organizing that. Our new chest freezer has proved very useful. Next on the list is to create a list, and probably computerize it, of what we have in fridge, freezer, and pantry. Pantry reorganization is nearly complete.


My altar is set up and all my magickal things are organized. Just got hangers and will be doing costumes next — then finishing fabric.


Next on the list is transitioning over to clean eating. Mostly moved my pastas over to whole wheat, and tortillas are next. I am thinking of making bread once a month. I want to start acquiring smaller amounts of vegetables and fruits, but getting them on a regular basis. I want to get rid of as much canned food as I can. I’ve been cutting back on my milk intake, which is good, and discovered I don’t mind vanilla almond milk for smoothies.

Once the stepson leaves, I can really get on with my workout schedule and meal schedule, as well as chores.


My attempts at plants were rudely interrupted by the unknown entity who mows my lawn, but I shall try again next spring, and probably look into some raised beds. I want herbs, and vegetables.


A day in the life…

Random Update

In a nutshell:

  • I went on an antidepressant and can actually concentrate and care!
  • Got a new job right before Yule, and things are going pretty well, even when I’m slow (averaging 10 massages a week right now, woohoo!)
  • Finished paying off my wedding dress! Now I just need to get bustier and shoes and I can see about getting it fit
  • Completed the design for wedding invitations and reply cards
  • Started working with the Morrigan. Taking it slow for starters, but, I know I need to start amping it up a little each month. January was my light a candle to her each night month. Not sure yet what February will bring, but, I’m looking forward to it.
  • I’m finally going back to school to finish my degree – orientation is Monday. I’m going to be majoring in Creative Writing, and I couldn’t be happier about it.
  • Spoke with recruiters and I can’t start paperwork until no more than six months prior to graduation. After my initial run in with the recruiters, I’m leaning Army over Air Force, but, I’m willing to pay the Air Force another visit in 18 months, to see if I get a better vibe.
  • I’m doing a 30 day squat challenge and a 30 day abs challenge. I’m day 11/30. Almost to the halfway mark. Week 2 of my NerdFitness challenge fizzled out due to Real Life (go to hell), but Week 3 was quite a comeback and Week 4 is going swell.

More later…

Defiant Kelari Corruptor Mage – Isistia

So, I kinda screwed up when I typed the name in: I meant to put Isistania, but didn’t. Oh well. It is pronounced Isis-tia, not Is-istia.

Just reached level 7 and I am really enjoying the storyline so far. Finally ready to start creating and destroying rifts!

I think that they do a good job with making the story something you can pick up with not knowing anything about it (I just downloaded it cuz a friend suggested it and said it was F2P). Not to mention, they make you feel like a badass saviour (at least as Defiant, I haven’t made a Guardian). Unlike World of Warcraft, where you do stupid things like kill bandits in a field, the quests seem to relate to progress through the story. It feels like there’s a reason behind your “random” killing sprees for XP and loot.

The interface is basically identical to WoW (at least from my brief stints with WoW). Not completely different from Lord of the Rings: Online, but the visuals of it are definitely WoW. Still trying to make sure my keymapping is redone to what I’m used to with LotRO.

The graphics are visually pleasing. Still feels more like a video game than LotRO, but, it lacks the cartoonish quality present in WoW. I, for one, am pleased by that. In addition, my character’s boobs are not outlandishly anime large. I ALWAYS appreciate that factor! I’m still waiting for boob size to be adjustable in an MMO… I mean, if they can do it in Sims…

The combat system seems fairly straightforward. They have a nice tutorial on the Soul Trees (Trait Trees in LotRO). You can choose to let the game automatically apply your points for you, or you can pick and choose. I like fire, so, I’m leaning heavier on the side of fire than the side of death, but heavier on death than poison stuff. It’s just how I roll.

Right now, it’s mostly button mashing, because I’m only 7, and you don’t really need much in the way of skill yet. I’ve re-formatted my skills in my quickslot bar, however, so, I’ll be trying to experiment with how they play off of each other.

This Ascended One is ready to start changing history.


I re-did my altar. That makes me feel better. I’m going to put out some water in my silver bowl tonight.




I started my new job today, and had my first massage there. It went really well. The client said afterward, “I feel like I’m on Cloud 9.” FISTPUMP. And, I have two massages already scheduled for Friday. For me, business is booming. ;)

I also picked up my antidepressants tonight. Today marks Day 1 of happy pills. We’ll see what happens?

More later when I’m not lazy.

Soup for the Soul

I’ve been having ups and downs and random breakdowns. Doesn’t PTSD ever just go away?

I start the homeopathics again tomorrow. I’m thinking of setting up some alarms on my phone for them and for my vitamins, so I actually remember to take them. Maybe taking them will help WITH my memory.

Inspired by a friend, I made some soup yesterday:

ImageNo real recipe, just threw stuff together. Browned some ground beef with two cloves of garlic and some onion powder (texture thing). Added one large-ish can of tomato sauce, a fair bit of water, about 3 bouillon cubes, a can of green beans, a can of pinto beans, some frozen carrots, and half a box of pasta. Add pepper, salt, thyme, oregano, rosemary, and a dash of sugar to help with the acidity, and voila! Hearty yumminess in a bowl.

Some things are starting to look up, though. There’s something tomorrow, and something else on Friday. Please send good vibes, energy, and thoughts. I’m hoping all goes well…

In the meantime, Project: Apothecary is underway. I’m working on creating a spell oil for Rhiannon – all the possibilities! Teeming of endlessness, but, I think I’m narrowing it down. Time to figure out exactly what ingredients I need to get for it, versus what I have on hand.